Warning: This entry has an anti-religious rant.. dont read if you are overly religious

IM  A FUCKING LOSER! not really.. but I haven't left my house for days and it makes me feel like I should or something..

It's too quiet in here.. it makes me want to jump up and scream at shit but that would take "effort" and it would wake everyone up.. Damn silence.

I had a conversation about religion with David, he was talking about philosophy (one of my favorite subjects that I CAN'T take!) and he was talking about how "Life is nothing, its all an illusion" which is true but it tripped me out.Then we got into that whole is there a god deal, we argued for 30 minutes before I won HA! He's not like super fucking religious, but its kinda like that deal when someone doesn't grow out of their baby blanket. He had been saying that line "god plans everything for a reason" I hate that line.. blech.

God doesn't fucking plan things out! Everything is probability.. Everything is logical. there is no meaning to life, we're just here on the sole fact that we as humans survived the harsh reaches of space.. our lives are insignificant. If god has a plan for everybody then why would sensless bad things happen? If a man cheats on his wife and gets AIDS and then gives it to the wife they teach you not to cheat.. the wifes lesson? Not to marry the bastard.. but what if she's pregnant? and has a baby with AIDS?  where is god then? That child will suffer physically and emotionaly for the rest of his life.. what was gods plan?